Ross New Year

Sitting here, just a watching you sleep, I cannot think of a better new year celebration than being this close to you.

I'm tired and I know you are too. Our children are small but cause us to move great lengths to nurish and protect them. Sometimes, we may fool ourselves saying inside "how could I possibly keep going!?". But we can and we will together. Doing family isn't about understanding the each other in all situations, but rather about experiencing as many of those situations together as possible. Naturally, I mean those difficult moments when you think life just isn't going forward anymore.

Everybody has those kinds of life altering experiences that cause you to doubt the sincerity of those around you, or conversely cause others to question you're integrity, which is precisely why those kinds of moments are so important. They make us cherish whoever the stranger or family member across from us might be. Even if that person has done something awlful, which has caused trust to be broken. In the end, because you've been through you're own shit you there is simply nothing left to say other than, "hey, you're just like me!"

So to get back to my point from the beginning: my baby and me have been through the shit together and there's no other place I'd like to be on new years eve than alone with her at her feet on our couch, thankful for the few quiet moments before the new day, and with it, the new year dawn.

Friends

It's imperative to have friends! As I get older I cherish those friendships more and more that require little maintanance as they are the most fitting to my life with small children. In fact... I can't say I have any high-maintanance friendships at the moment. Come to think of it: I think it's just a sign of age.

And I'm okay with that.