Blogs

Sometimes you gotta ask yourself the question: What's with all the blogs? I often find myself trying to read each blog from all my friends. While doing it I see blogs from friends of my friends and think I need to read theirs as well. It's madening. I think that's one of the reasons I have only told one person so far my actual blog address. Not sure if I really want to either. I wonder how long it will take before anyone sees this blog.
What's the point really of having a blog?
Spoke with this guy I met at University. I told him, I think it goes hand in hand with the idea of finding a forum to present oneself. To be personal, deep, open and intimate. To leave superficiality and embrace honesty. He looked at me and said: "I don't like all that. It's too personal for me. I just want my friends to be able to keep up with what I'm doing and me with them."
I found this to be really honest and it made me think about my motivation for having a blog.
I'm searching for something. Sometimes I make this search too serious. I'm not trying to get people to come with me. For me writting is a way of searching. To know that it's all being recorded is somehow interesting. It gives me a goal. Makes me stay focused. I know that someone, someday, might have a look at this. Or maybe I will look back on all I've written. Will I have made progress. Will it be aparent to what goal I was headed?
Or will I be another overly serious blog, with no relevance to life whatsoever?
I think my problem is that I cant stand pure entertainment. I want to be someone who thinks. Someone who doesn't get themselves tied up in thought-circles.
I don't want to make pain and dissapointment into a bigger deal than they are. And I don't want to confuse good times and success for some devine blessing.
I am a man. Lavished with something I could not earn, that I might gain what I can never lose. And that is just kicken!